I have problems getting over poor decisions I’ve made. I continuously beat myself up over silly things I’ve said or done. But I’m ready to make a change – letting go of silly regrets.
Am I the only one? Here are two examples of poor decisions and how I am going to get over them! You will think I am crazy for getting mad at myself over such small things, but that is just the way I am wired. But I am trying to change that…
Example #1: For “Buckeye’s” first father’s day two years ago, I wanted to take him someplace special. There is a restaurant nearby called Surf and Sirloin (yes, I am calling them out) that he always talked about but I never wanted to go because it always looked sketchy. In honor of his first father’s day, I called and made a reservation for my entire family to have brunch there. My family always gets together on holidays so this would be no exception. I scheduled a late brunch because of “Huck’s” nap.
We arrived at 1:30 to a brunch buffet that was very picked-over. The food was not warm. We were told we couldn’t order off the menu (even though a family later arrived and was allowed to order off the menu after their persistent pleas). We debated leaving, with grumbles from several family members, but decided to stay. The food wasn’t great and we were less than thrilled when the semi-expensive bill arrived. I feel like I ruined everyone’s day and I hated that people wasted money on an expensive meal that didn’t taste great.
So now, every time I drive by that place, I cringe. “Buckeye” knows about this but it wasn’t until a few nights ago when it got brought up that he made me feel a lot better. He told me to get over it because it was exactly how he wanted to spend his first father’s day. He got to try a new restaurant and spend time with his family. Knowing that he still enjoyed his special day is helping me fight this regret I have over a brunch 2 years ago!
Example #2: My entire family went to Mexico last summer. One of the excursions we took was a catamaran ride out to the ocean. The day we went on the excursion, it was windy and the waves were choppy. My dad and grandpa got sick and I started feeling sick toward the end of it. (I normally don’t get seasick!) Worst of all, my little “Huck” got sick. He was whiny and looked lethargic which just isn’t like him.
So last Monday when I was watching The Bachelor and saw nice dates on boats, it brought me back to my Mexico memory. I started sobbing (hello pregnancy hormones). I told my husband that I hate that I made a decision that made my toddler so sick. I remember how miserable I felt and I hate that I subjected my toddler to the same feeling. I wished I wouldn’t have taken “Huck” on the excursion and would have just stayed at the resort. Of course my husband laughed and commented how random I am.
But I decided that it is time to get over that memory. Our feet got safely on shore and my toddler no longer has that icky seasick feeling. Time to get over it, right? I just hate those visuals that remind me of such things…
Am I crazy for not letting go of silly bad decisions? These things are no big deal nowadays, so time to get over them, right? I can understand when I regret big life decisions, but why do I have regrets over such small things?
Anyone else have silly regrets that haunt them?